what does it take?

what does it take for one to go "mad"? and exactly how "mad", "sad", "depressed" or "angry" must one bem before they fall into such a category?

must i slit my wrists in order for others to realise that something's wrong? do i care if they know? do i care if they care? not really. maybe it would be nice to let them know that i've not been myself lately because i dont know what it means, because 'something' has finally turned me upside down and inside out, and just..well, just BECAUSE.

i want this to be over. i want to be in a place where i dont feel the way i feel here. i want to run away. but where? "home"? well, am giving that a shot next weekend...i promise to be as enthusiastic as i can...but will it be honest? i dont know. i dont care. maybe because i no longer care, ill give up on the disdain i feel about the physical location of my "home" and just focus on my family; i.e. those who make it my home.